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Title: All I Have
Pairing: Myka/HG
Rating: PG-13 for kissing and mentions of sexytiemz
Disclaimer: Alas, I own nothing related to Warehouse 13. If I did, HG and Myka would have been going at it the instant “Vendetta” ended.
Summary/AN:  Response to the 100 Members Comment-Fic Party prompt by 4ensicbones 


The raven-haired woman shivered at the tenderness of the brunette’s voice and choked back a sob. “Myka, please.”

“Why, Helena?”

“We can’t…you can’t…”

“I can’t?!” Myka exclaimed, putting a hand to her chest. Her heart ached as she watched Helena rock back and forth on the rug, arms around her knees, which were drawn up against her chest. “You can’t dictate what I do,” Myka continued. “You can’t tell me not to love you.”

Helena did sob this time, a few tears escaping her tenuous hold on her emotions to glide down her cheeks. “I’m no good for you, Myka,” she said, voice trembling from the weight of pent-up sadness. “I’m a broken woman gilded in bronze who should have been left there.”

“Don’t give me that,” Myka said firmly, panic edging her voice as she knelt before Helena and put her hands on her shoulders. “Don’t you dare give me that. At least let me make you whole again,” she added in a softer tone, cupping Helena’s cheek. Helena bit her lip, closing her eyes as she fought the temptation to lean into Myka’s touch.

“I can’t watch you break because of me,” the dark-haired woman whispered. “I won’t weigh you down with my burdens.”

“Helena, listen to me!” Myka took her face in her hands gently but firmly, forcing the woman to open her eyes and meet her gaze. “I know the burdens you bring. I know what hurts you, and though I may not fully understand it, I refuse to let that stop me. Let me share it with you. I want that. I want this – us.”

“You don’t understand!” Helena burst out, all her fears and insecurities coming to the fore to collide with her love and longing. “There is darkness in me, Myka! I have done horrible things, enough to get me bronzed! I can’t let you become tainted by my sins! I…” she choked, and her next words came out as a hoarse whisper. “I love you too much.”

“You asked to be bronzed,” Myka countered, voice soothing as she rubbed Helena’s shoulders. Helena almost hated herself for enjoying her touch, but her yearning for the brunette agent was too strong. "I know there's darkness in you," Myka continued. "But there’s still so much light, and I love you for both – for all of it. Helena…you’re so special.” She stroked the woman’s ebony hair, brushing it out of her eyes. “You’ve gone through so, so much, and yet…you’re here. You make it through each day, and you can still spare a smile for Claudia and a joke for Pete and…” her eyes water a little as her lips quirk into a smile, “…a kiss for me. You’re magic, Helena – magic that I want in my life.”

Helena’s resolve finally collapsed, just as she did into Myka’s arms. She buried her head in the woman’s shoulder, clutching her shirt. “You feel like home,” she murmured absentmindedly, voice muffled by the fabric of her shirt. Myka placed a kiss on the top of her head as she stroked her back.

“Then let me be your home,” she whispered into the woman’s hair, rocking her back and forth.

“Oh, Myka.” Helena pulled back to look into the brunette’s eyes, so kind and understanding. “I can’t…it’s just…you’re all I have, and I don’t ever want to be without you…but I’m so afraid that I’ll hurt you even if I don’t mean to. I could never forgive myself if I did.”

“The only thing hurting me is you not being with me,” Myka replied, her own voice quivering as she used her thumb to brush away Helena’s tears. “You don’t have anything to fear with me, Helena. I’ll always be there for you, and I’ll always be yours.”

The raw, undeniable love in Myka’s voice filled Helena so completely that her own love for the brunette burst from her in a fresh flood of tears, and she held onto Myka with every ounce of passion she had. Myka gripped her just as tightly, her sigh of relief leaving her in a tear-filled gasp.

“Don’t let me go,” the raven-haired woman pleaded.

“Never,” Myka swore.

“I love you.” Helena tilted her head to kiss the agent’s neck. “I love you so much.”

“I love you too, Helena.” Myka lifted the woman’s chin to meet her in a reassuring kiss, one filled with the promise of safety and undying, unwavering love. “Marry me?” Myka whispered against her lips.

Helena pulled back with wide eyes. “Wh-what?”

“Marry me?” Myka asked again, her earlier determination replaced with trepidation as she handed her heart to Helena, praying and hoping and begging her to take it.

She did. “Of course I’ll marry you, Myka,” came her breathless reply, her despair giving way to happiness she didn’t know was possible as a smile of pure joy lit her face. The same smile appeared on Myka, tears of a new sort filling both their eyes as they crashed together in a kiss overflowing with love so intense it nearly sent shockwaves exploding through the room. Instead the waves overtook Helena, the raven-haired woman crying out as Myka brought her to the height of ecstasy on the floor of the Warehouse’s H.G. Wells section.

Later, much later, in the agent’s bed, in her arms, Helena kissed Myka’s temple and whispered, “You were right.”

Myka turned her head to face Helena where the two rested on the pillows. “About what?” she asked, trailing her fingertips up and down the woman’s bare back.

Helena smiled at her, feeling lighter and more at peace than she could remember. “I have nothing to fear because you’re all I have, and, as you told me you are mine, I will always, always be yours.”


( 15 comments — Leave a comment )
Oct. 31st, 2010 09:26 pm (UTC)
*clutches heart* AWWWWW!!! Oh my god, I need a hug after reading that story. It was so angsty but it ended so sweetly! Go Myka for geeting your girl AND proposing!!! Whoohoo!!

Oct. 31st, 2010 10:23 pm (UTC)
Awww, thank you!!! Yeah, even writing it made me want hugs, lol. Thanks so much!
Oct. 31st, 2010 11:12 pm (UTC)
Whoa, I just realized that comment cherry's mine, lol. But yeah, Myka/HG pairing needs more fic like this.

Nov. 1st, 2010 12:48 am (UTC)
I feel the need to go hug something soft and fluffy after reading this. D: So angsty, but so good. I love this line especially: “I’m a broken woman gilded in bronze who should have been left there.” Chilling, in a way, that HG feels like that.

Thanks so much for answering my prompt! Brilliant fic.
Nov. 1st, 2010 04:21 am (UTC)
Aw, you're welcome! Yeah, I kinda wanted to join the group hug, but figured that would be rude to Myka and HG. I thought the song was going to be really dark based on the lyrics in your prompt, but I listened to the song and was like, "Wow, this is so...upbeat." o.O

I'm so glad you like this! :D :D :D
Nov. 1st, 2010 04:32 am (UTC)
Haha, sorry about that! The song is rather upbeat, but I like how you turned it into something darker.
Nov. 1st, 2010 08:02 am (UTC)
Glad it meets your approval. ;D
Nov. 1st, 2010 04:04 am (UTC)
That was quite lovely! Full of passion and love and just enough angst to make it all worthwhile. Very nice job. Looking very much forward to seeing more from you, very soon. (Was that subtle enough, do you think? *g*)


Nov. 1st, 2010 04:19 am (UTC)
Lol, soooo very subtle. ;D Thanks so much! I wrote this while waiting for my muse for part two of "Eros/Thanatos" to kick back in. I want to get it JUSTRIGHT. But yeah, this one was fun. Glad you liked it! I'll get to writing more asap, lol *nods* *g*
Nov. 1st, 2010 07:11 am (UTC)
OH MY GOD!!! So much awesomeness filled in one chapter, the angst and cuteness overload and the proposal!!! *swoons* <3 <3 <3 I dunno why but the stories that include the proposal just makes my heart melt :D I mean duh! getting married to THE HG Wells? epically awesome! :D :D

Hah, i wonder how Myka's parents would react knowing their lovely daughter dating/getting married to one of the best authors the world could give us ;) [subtle prompt idea? idk but feel free to use it if you want]

Thank you muchly for sharing this little story with us and I can't wait for the next one *hugs*
Nov. 22nd, 2010 11:21 pm (UTC)
Gah, I dunno why I haven't responded to this yet! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I'm SO glad you like it! Yeah, the proposal is always sweet. I think Myka's parents would actually think it was kinda cool, and not too out of the ordinary, considering their experience with Poe's diary. xD

All I can really articulate right now is that I'm so glad you like it! :D
Nov. 1st, 2010 11:07 am (UTC)
*begin snippet*

“You asked to be bronzed,” Myka countered, voice soothing as she rubbed Helena’s shoulders. Helena almost hated herself for enjoying her touch, but her yearning for the there’s still so much light, and I love you for both – for all of it. Helena…you’re so special.”

*end snippet*

I think you accidentally left some words out in the middle there...
Nov. 1st, 2010 11:36 pm (UTC)
CRAP. Microsoft word does that sometimes. Lemme fix it. Thanks for the heads up. I'm going to fucking shoot the touchpad on my laptop...
Nov. 1st, 2010 11:39 pm (UTC)
Ok. Fixed it. Off to shoot the touchpad mouse.
Nov. 2nd, 2010 10:54 pm (UTC)
*sigh* Thank you for the Myka/HG fix... now I'm back to my Sanctuary fic :)
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